Mamaste to you world. This blog will explain a lot of things. It might provide you clarity and it might also confuse you. Most importantly it will relieve me, Mamaste, of the many pent up thoughts and ideas that percolate in my cerebellum on a daily basis as I attempt to raise my daughter LJ.
I’m just a person trying to figure this whole mom thing out whilst also trying to “balance” the numerous other aspects of life: wifehood, daughterhood, sisterhood, neighbor (hood?), dog-owner, employee, home-owner, etc. (I think the ‘deer in the headlights’ emoji would be appropriate here). I’d like to rewind to the first sentence and place emphasis on the word “TRYING”. You’ll note that I also placed the word “balance” in quotations and that was not a punctuation typo…I’ll let that hang in the air for a few moments to allow the anticipation to build (Refer to blog post about “The Mirage of Balance”: coming soon to a theater near you, as soon as the movie rights are bought by Warner Brothers, or as soon as I have the budget for an Indy film because you told all your friends to read my blog. I thank you in advance, and I might even put you in the film credits). Shameless Introductory Disclaimer: I sometimes use many long and convoluted statements in parenthesis.
With so many roles in existential circulation, I oftentimes feel like I am flying blind, trudging forward without truly knowing if I am heading in the right direction. But, does anyone ever really know? Like REALLY? I’d argue they don’t. If you silently answered yes to that rhetorical question I call B.S. – bold, underlined, italicized – B.S.. If that offends your delusion-ally omniscient self, I do not apologize. I think we owe it to ourselves to be both internally and externally honest. It can be hard to find the vulnerability to admit it, but that does not alter the inevitable truth: we are human.
We are mistake-prone and have a host of imperfections. And that is OKAY. You don’t have to let the chorus of hypocritical self-righteousness permeate your anti-fragile brain. Your perception of judgments is always stronger than the judgments themselves. Do I sound convincing? Do I sound like I am still trying to convince myself? Many days I have to remind myself that other people do not expect me to be perfect (and if they do, damn them), so why do I put the pressure on myself to be so? NEWS FLASH: life is not the perfectly curated production you often see as you scroll on instagram before going to bed at night.
Emotions are hard. So let’s take a step back. I am not trying to hit you over the head with the home run baseball bat of profound wisdom too early in this blogging journey. Did that make sense? I don’t even watch baseball (sorry, Grandpa!).
In spite of this, the journey of motherhood (mixed with all other roles you may aim at filling) is blissfully fulfilling, and quite frankly, a lot of fun. And who would know better than yours truly as I bask in the proverbial spotlight of experience, parenting my first child, whom is currently 12 weeks old. Okay, so maybe you would call that 12 weeks young. Point being, experience is obviously on my side……
However, I figure that the questions, roadblocks, frustrations, hormones, and myriad other things that I have encountered and will continue to encounter, may be something that you can relate to. So why not form a community of these shared experiences? A community where one can come to confide in, find comfort in, laugh with, laugh at, or learn from. A sense of community is powerful and empowering. Who doesn’t want that??
My goal is to create a safe, supportive, sometimes comedic (or intended to be), and resourceful forum for people – moms, dads, those contemplating becoming moms or dads, or really anyone. In particular I am attempting to reach those who have a keen appreciation for honesty, vulnerability, sarcasm and self deprecation (all of which are dripping throughout this forum and seem to be essential survival skills from what I can tell in these first 12 weeks). Most importantly I want to show that you’re not alone!
Spoiler Alert: If you have not seen The Office, Parks N Rec, or a handful of other shows that I tend to reference throughout my writings, proceed with caution if you intend to watch them in the future, but know that you are monumentally behind the times.
Among other topics, I will be traversing the following as it relates to baby, and life in general:
- Products (the good and the bad)
- Tips and Tricks
- Experiences (the good, the bad, the ugly) You Can Learn From
- Husband/Dad Perspective
- Can You Relate?
Stay tuned!
Mamaste 